Monday, June 29, 2009

Lost in My own Thoughts

With a perplexed look on my face, I'll see what the future holds for me.

The last few weeks have been tough ones. In terms of Emotionally and Mentally draining, they were probably the worst two weeks ever. The last 2 days have been the worse though. Finding out that someone has lied to you for years hurts like nothing I have ever felt before. It shattered all my dream and aspirations. I wasn't even shocked or surprised, I was too hurt to feel anything but pain. They say things happen for a reason...well I better be given a good reason to hurt the way I have been. I gave my all, sacrificed a lot and changed into a man I never thought I'd be, and all for someone who betrayed me and played me like a fool since day one. I've been jumped before, I've been hurt before but none of it even comes close to comparing to the pain I've felt the last 48 hours. The tears I've cried have been overwhelming, and I have even found myself shedding a tear or two when I least expect it. With things getting this bad, I can only look forward to better things...Time is my best friend and my worst enemy...But Time Heals all wounds. Rest in Peace to what I thought it was.

I've been slacking on my Blogging, but will be back as soon as I complete my move. Who knew I'd have my own place and be nervous?


JEGZ aka Black Casanova said...

I've been heart broken and lied to before so I can definitely relate to what you're going through. Since then, life has taught me several lessons. The most important one is that we need to fall to learn how to get back up again. The things that hurt us will either break us or make us stronger. If it's the latter, which I know it will be in your case, you'll see that you'll be a better man in the end. I don't believe you'll ever be able to forget, and you'll probably never love someone with the same intensity, but you will love again, and it will be whole heartedly. You're right my friend, time is the only thing that can help right now. You have a unique system of friends that are here for you. Fuck that Bitch! She never deserved you. It's creatures like her that turn men into dogs. Anyway, I love you man. Stay strong.

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